It is 1:00 am and I just got done feeding your little brother.  Then I went around checking on everybody and came upon your little sleeping tushy sticking up in the air.  My heart goes out to you these days.  I have so much to go back and write about with Zeke’s birth and all the other crazy things that have happened over the last month.  But tonight I feel compelled to just sit down and write to you. 

This change has been hardest on you.  You are only two.  Still a baby yourself.  Yet, we look at you and treat you so much older.  Hell, some babies your age are still nursing!  You are such an amazing little person.   I see how hard you are struggling to accept this little blob of a brother that is permanently attached to me.  He is a baby that is only satisfied if he is on me, and usually that means sucking on my boob.  You have lost being the baby in my lap, or being picked up and carried around by me.  And he cries alot!  So far he ain’t that fun for you. 

And yet, you have been nothing but loving to him.  You love to hold him. You run in to say good morning to him.  The worst thing that has come out of you is hitting your big sister.  At least you are picking on somebody bigger than you.   Not the smartest thing to do as a habit, but it works for getting through this tough transition.  Micah understands you are feeling out of sorts, and luckily you are not able to inflict harm.   You are also becoming permanently attached to your passy and blankie.  You reach for that now instead of me. 

I just want you to know that Zeke’s rude entrance into your world has done nothing but make me love you even more.  I appreciate you more than ever.  You are one of the most amazing little girls I have ever known.  In the middle of all this coping you are doing, you decided to finish potty training yourself.  When my Dad was in charge one day, (I had to be away with Zeke at doctor appointments) you decided that all the candy laying around would be a good reward for going to the potty.  My Dad (not knowing any better) let you take a big handful everytime you went.  Now most kids would just take full advantage of a grandparents ignorance and simply eat all the candy they wanted.  But you decided that combining taking advantage of your grandpa with potty training yourself would be the way to go.  That is just one example of how amazing you are. 

As soon as I was pregnant (before the test even confirmed this) you decided that you were done with your crib and nursing.  You have done your best to grow up into a “big girl” as fast as possible.  You constantly entertain us with the grown up things that come out of your little body.  Although, your love of good wine is maybe taking this to an extreme. 

So I want you to know that you are still allowed to be my baby girl.  I will try my hardest to love on you constantly (even with the new growth on my boob).  My favorite part of the day is taking naps with you. And although you probably feel like I love you less now that the new boob growth has arrived; I can assure you that the opposite is true.  I feel like my love for you has exponentially increased.  I see you more clearly than ever before.  I appreciate your little personality a million times more.  You are truly an original.  The one and only ever you.

I love you forever and always

Mom